She stares at me from the corner, but I don’t dare meet those eyes with mine.Â I glance toward her only occasionally, to ensure her restraints are holding.Â There’s no reason they wouldn’t still hold: I have by nowÂ become quite skilled at preventing her from escaping.Â But every time I look into those familiar eyes, see her face, and see what I’ve done to the person I love most, my empathy bewitches me and I’m filled with a single-minded desire to free her and tearfully apologise for the bruises and the sores on her wrists and ankles.
But, of course, that would be my doom.Â I know well by now that while her mind is still inhabited by one of the malicious souls, she will do all she can to cause me harm.Â Indeed, I have my own share of bruises, and worse, attesting to the ferocity and vigour with which the soul will employ the whole of her body — fists, nails, feet, teeth — to the end of damaging and destroying me.Â The arcane powers deep bellow this valleyÂ fuel its strength, and drive its lust for destruction and suffering.Â Motivated by the most uncompromising hate,Â this uninvited guestÂ would act as the agent of chaotic entropy unfailingly, crushing and tearing apart all life as it went,Â for as long as its hapless host remained untorn and intact.
This valley,Â I was informed before our arrival, isÂ infested by a cloud of evil souls. They enter the bodies of unvigilant victims, overthrowing the minds of any who are not constantly alert and on guard against their entry.Â And for many long weeks of forgotten quantity we have traveled, in our attempt to get through.Â My memory of the decision to take this road, against all recommendations and warnings from the local peasants and townsfolk, has faded into such a haze that it now more resembles an event told to me, rather than experienced by me. I return to it and dwell on it often in these periods of intensely dull peace when she is restrained.Â The deep self-loathing resulting from the deep regret of that misdeed,Â rather thanÂ altering the past to reverse that ignorant decision, as I foolishly, futilely hope, only worsens my health.Â Â My clothes are constantly damp with cold sweat, my muscles sore from never quite fully relaxing.Â My mind is in a sea of needles, constantly prickled, and I long for sleep.Â I am constantly at war with my body as it rages against me and uses any means it can to suck me down into sleep, not limiting itself to only blackening my sight, or refusing my request to move a limb.Â I have yet to surrender, however, for my allies, which make me strong,Â are the love I have for my wife, and the fear of the violent soul that inhabits her.
Yes, it is my wife that I must so desperately protect myself against!Â Never before could I have imagined such a perplexingly terrible thing:Â that my dearest wife, my overflowing font of gaiety and primary purpose in life, would be my greatest foe!
Oh, if only I could continue our travel and escape this valley!Â Dwelling is such great pain.Â Perhaps I could find, or fashion, a cage strong enough to contain a crazed woman.Â Yes, a cage of thick iron bars and a lock blessed by a hundred bishops, whose key I could keep safe on my person, never to use till the poisonous soul departs.Â I could place it upon a cart drawn by the steadiest oxenÂ — to reduce to a minimum theÂ antagonization brought toÂ that deranged soul.Â These oxen would never fail, for I would bath them daily in the concoctions of alchemists, and let them drink their fill of the potions of wizards!Â No beast could harm them, and we would carry on through the darkest forests, never stopping, impossible to stop, with the infinite inertia of God himself until finally we are gone from this valley, never to return!
Now, where am I to find this cage?Â Who can produce it?Â Ah, what’s this?Â Whence came this hair that lingers in my lap and is in my fingers wrapped? Of course, it is my own, the source:Â my head,Â where itÂ wasÂ grown!Â Fortuitous providence: a material for the cage!Â Divine inspiration — weaving: the method to build the cage!Â The path out the valley is found, our suffering ends soon.Â Look, wife, watch me construct!Â Â A cage of iron bars shall form in view of your occupied eyes.Â With my hair, and my unconquered determination, it will assemble itself.Â My sweat will be wizard potion, my blood will spawn oxen.Â Urine will mix with the spit of my mouth, as surely must be recorded the alchemists’ tomes.Â Wife, we shall be together unhindered again soon!